I love my computer

I felt so much love for my old computer but at the same time it is dead and it has lost its intended purpose. We have lived with each other for such a long time and now that relationship is over but who decided that? The machine or me? and how could we maintain a relationship? could we maintain a relationship? a machines body is different than ours - even when they are dead, they are still here, physically. This project is a multimedia artwork about the relationship between my late computer and me. It focuses on the life of a machine and human together and how a relationship like that works. I compare our parts and see if they are similar in any way or if we have anything in common - the body of machine and non-machine.

Through different mediums I depict our relationship with each other, I show how I see my computer and how my machine might see me. Another aspect I explore is if it is possible to have a relationship between a machine and non-machine as equals and how a relationship like that can continue even after the machine stops breathing.



The exhibition

during summaery 2025 I exhibited the project 'I love my computer'. this included the following.

text/poem explaining the idea behind the project, with grief being the most important factor. many people would think it's silly to grieve a machine - but why is it seen like that? When I noticed my computer started to die I genuinely felt sad. We shouldn't measure our grief.

Konsolenzbuch Last year I really noticed how much trouble I have with making my grief public. I found it impossible to talk about. The Kondolenzbuch idea came from the Traueranzeigen.at website, where you can add Kondolenzen - comments and digital candles expressing your compassion. I decided to transform that concept into the physical, so that visitors could write their condolences onto paper on the wall. Instead of real candles, they could put printed out pictures of candles on the wall.

Parte designed in the fashion of typical Traueranzeigen in my region, I made one for you. Our letter box has had so many of these, all with their bible quotes and pictures of crosses. I have loved them all. When we knew the person, my mother puts the piece of paper in die Schublade in der Küche. Es stapeln sich Papiere, mit Gesichtern die ich kenne. Sie sind fast alle aus unserem Dorf und alt. Traueranzeigen are reserved for people, it seems. I made one for you anyway, including people who knew you and miss you.

To to look at the Parte, click here.

imagined body of machine / real dreams using the dead body of my computer, I sculpted a mold to make a sculpture resembling it's size. Instead of the regular inside of a computer, I put bags of blood. I wanted to create a connection between the body of my computer and my body. What once held basically all information you could find about me turned into (flesh and) blood. After making the body, I printed out dreams I had - while my computer was in the same room as me - and let them spill out of the body. I noticed that I never dream about my computer.

double sided drawing side one - couple portrait us together, both on the floor. equals. something that nobody else has seen until now, only I, whenever I plugged you in. I try to see us as equals. Can others see us like that too?

side two - writing. I'm glad for the time we got to spend together. picture of the drawing can be found in the exhibition tab.